We said: Finding solutions is making decisions.
I came home from this long killing journey.
My glimpse through the window, landscape stole my tears but wasn’t tricky enough.
I was alone, nobody out there.
No one back in my mind who gives me vigor
and nobody says: You’re not forsaken.
Then I was alone, nobody out there.
My stomach absorbed itself and engulfs me in its vacuum.
I couldn’t handle reality when I forced my mind to say:
This loving is over, it never comes back to you again.
This loving is over, it never comes back to you again
Then I was alone, nobody out there.
No one back in my mind who gives me vigor
and nobody says: You’re not forsaken.
Then I was alone, nobody out there.
And I was hating myself for always searching for reasons that were not here.
My thinking didn’t stop: there will be no next.
And I travel through the past.
Banishing memories from my mind.
I perceive angry thoughts, calling you guilty, blaming myself.
Getting no message, no call in the night.
I won’t wake up from my destructive fettle.
Please give me hope for my next days.
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